This, that, and the other thing
Dec. 4th, 2003 03:42 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beetigerThis: We took the little guy for a formal portrait sitting yesterday, at my friend Paul's studio. The goal of getting some nice nursing pictures, so that I can have a triptych with the one of the playful topless shots from my first trimester and the earth-mother nudes from my third trimester was definitely achieved. The goal of getting a nice portrait of him, and a nice family portrait, was sort-of-achieved: I like the pictures, but am not totally in love with them, and I'm anxious about paying Paul's higher-than-I-thought prices for them. (The previous series were technically modeling, and I didn't pay for them.) I'll share some of the proof jpegs if I get permission from Paul, not sure what his policy is.
That: I can't type very well from my nursing chair, but I can read webpages okay. Yesterday my rambling brought me to the page of the Jinkies, a multiple with an extremely complex gender identity. The body they share is transsexual (MtF, I think, though I'm not positive), and quite a few of the people within are genderqueer of some sort. I'm still trying to get my head around what it must be like to be a gay man in a shared MtF body, or what the difference in feel must be between being the trans-identified woman in that group vs. one of the women who isn't trans-identified. Fascinating stuff! I really like their user icons; they're all of the outside physical person they all are, but the expressions are different enough that I can believe they represent truly different people.
The other thing: Our budding local playgroup met at our house today. I'm happy for it; Rhys really prefers socializing without having to get in the carseat first, and was indeed a gracious host, by seven-week-old standards. We have a bunch to share, mostly having to do with living locally and having tiny babies. I hope/worry that I come off too much like a typical suburban first time mom, and that I won't be able to build friendships like this once my queer pagan geeky poly gamergirl self comes out. Then again, for all I know, the other folks could be thinking the exact same thing, as nothing non-baby-related has really come up yet. I haven't been hiding particularly; my altar is up, but not particularly in a baby-traffic area, etc. I don't really feel an obligation to do an infodump either. We'll see. I still think that many more people are much less mainstream than they look, that there are a lot of us slipping under the radar, day to day.
That: I can't type very well from my nursing chair, but I can read webpages okay. Yesterday my rambling brought me to the page of the Jinkies, a multiple with an extremely complex gender identity. The body they share is transsexual (MtF, I think, though I'm not positive), and quite a few of the people within are genderqueer of some sort. I'm still trying to get my head around what it must be like to be a gay man in a shared MtF body, or what the difference in feel must be between being the trans-identified woman in that group vs. one of the women who isn't trans-identified. Fascinating stuff! I really like their user icons; they're all of the outside physical person they all are, but the expressions are different enough that I can believe they represent truly different people.
The other thing: Our budding local playgroup met at our house today. I'm happy for it; Rhys really prefers socializing without having to get in the carseat first, and was indeed a gracious host, by seven-week-old standards. We have a bunch to share, mostly having to do with living locally and having tiny babies. I hope/worry that I come off too much like a typical suburban first time mom, and that I won't be able to build friendships like this once my queer pagan geeky poly gamergirl self comes out. Then again, for all I know, the other folks could be thinking the exact same thing, as nothing non-baby-related has really come up yet. I haven't been hiding particularly; my altar is up, but not particularly in a baby-traffic area, etc. I don't really feel an obligation to do an infodump either. We'll see. I still think that many more people are much less mainstream than they look, that there are a lot of us slipping under the radar, day to day.
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Date: 2003-12-05 10:36 am (UTC)Yet I can almost see myself doing that; and it's almost like the reason I don't is that it seems too magical, too special to be something that's really me. Like I don't believe in it. This strikes me as a very strange perspective for me to have. :)