1. Even if I can't avoid it, there are paranoid, bigotted or angry thoughts down there I don't want to touch; there are ugly things in me, that take energy to feel or refute, and especially whenever I have outright rage, it totally drains me physically afterwards. There are also thoughts about money and past decisions that I don't want to think about because it tends to lead me into beating myself up.
2. For some reason it feels like there's some sort of sadness or doubt that you're not addressing. I don't think you'd ask questions like this if you didn't feel some sort of uncertainty. My guess is the business of starting a family is really making you process stuff, and if you're not concious about what that is, you will be in a bit. Hope that's not too stupid or new agey sounding?
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Date: 2003-05-28 10:36 pm (UTC)2. For some reason it feels like there's some sort of sadness or doubt that you're not addressing. I don't think you'd ask questions like this if you didn't feel some sort of uncertainty. My guess is the business of starting a family is really making you process stuff, and if you're not concious about what that is, you will be in a bit. Hope that's not too stupid or new agey sounding?