Fuzzy, not so much in the good way
Apr. 12th, 2007 02:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beetigerI keep forgetting things lately.
Appointments I've made, even regular ones that happen every week, until I'm almost up against them and maybe have scheduled something else over them or maybe slept through them. People's names, or people's kids names, or people's partner's names, or the context in which I know someone when I run into them in the park. Random facts that I really ought to know, who sang some song or other, some bit of math or food science or herbalism. It's making me feel lost and disconnected, and sort of stupid, and I think maybe it's making people think I don't care or I'm not paying attention, although actually I do, and I am, or I'm trying, anyway. I've never been particularly good at this stuff, but lately I'm feeling particularly bad at it. It certainly isn't making it any easier to make new connections with people, something I'm really trying to do right now. I don't think I'm too underslept, and I don't actually feel distracted or anything, and I don't know if the version of depression I'm working with right now would cause this, or if it's just the way I seem to be interacting with the world around me right now in a more general way.
In any case, call this a meme or just a favor or what have you, but if you're reading this, go ahead and comment and remind me of something? Anything at all would do, though if you think I've been losing track of something in particular that has to do with you, do mention that.
Appointments I've made, even regular ones that happen every week, until I'm almost up against them and maybe have scheduled something else over them or maybe slept through them. People's names, or people's kids names, or people's partner's names, or the context in which I know someone when I run into them in the park. Random facts that I really ought to know, who sang some song or other, some bit of math or food science or herbalism. It's making me feel lost and disconnected, and sort of stupid, and I think maybe it's making people think I don't care or I'm not paying attention, although actually I do, and I am, or I'm trying, anyway. I've never been particularly good at this stuff, but lately I'm feeling particularly bad at it. It certainly isn't making it any easier to make new connections with people, something I'm really trying to do right now. I don't think I'm too underslept, and I don't actually feel distracted or anything, and I don't know if the version of depression I'm working with right now would cause this, or if it's just the way I seem to be interacting with the world around me right now in a more general way.
In any case, call this a meme or just a favor or what have you, but if you're reading this, go ahead and comment and remind me of something? Anything at all would do, though if you think I've been losing track of something in particular that has to do with you, do mention that.
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Date: 2007-04-12 09:31 pm (UTC)Now, remember that being, apparently, the pawn of tricksterish forces is NOT FUNNY. Of the BPALs I've tried so far, none has really disliked me. Crow Moon has liked me, which should be self-explanatory; Kali, a goddess of destruction (often misinterpreted, but still) REALLY LIKES me, and so does Tezcat, which is named after an Aztec trickster god. *facepalm* Do I dare try Coyote? I've got The Raven on the way....
Oh, and you already know this, but remember that you are excellent and worthy of every good thing that comes your way -- Rhys included.